Tag Archives: motherhood

On Family: From the Girl Who Didn’t Want One

I met my husband at 20. Ironically I was concurrently terrified of marriage. At the time, I saw marriage and family as a gateway to an isolated, consumeristic, and vapid life. It looked to me to be severely limiting and, in contrast to the life I was leading, profoundly unfulfilling. I was a senior in […]

I never expected to be here today: A Poem

It’s easy to look at the days full of meltdowns as wasted days or inconveniences, but I think that maybe they bring about the best kind of heartbreak for a mother. They are the ones that give us insight into who are children are, who we are as mothers, and they break our hearts with […]

Motherhood

It happens like a kind of Dying. Head over porcelain, world spinning. Two lines and excitement and terror. It happens like a kind of Living. Tiny heartbeat, little body wriggling. Movement and growing and just knowing. It happens like a kind of Dying. Tightening, sweating and moaning, and fear. How much more? and how long? […]

Peeling Off the Dragon Scales

Life is exhausting. You can say it about a lot of things: motherhood is exhausting; marriage is exhausting; being single is exhausting; work is exhausting… There are days where the temptation to curl up on the couch with a blanket for hours on end, uninterrupted, sounds like the greatest of paradises. Apathy whispers at us, […]

Be Perfect?

There are days when I transform into a yelling mom. As my impatience and frustration grows I increase in decibels, often hypocritically so, as I am telling my sons to speak kindly to one another. My husband is patient in reminding me to take a step back, and speak calmly with a gentle tone. I […]