Author Archives: Lydia

We Need Self-Death, Not Self-Care

Without love, you die. With love, you also die. Not all deaths are equal.Jonathan Safran Foer Not all deaths are equal. Most people want to have their lives marked by love. We want to die with love, not without it. But how? How do we love when we are depleted and sorrowful…empty? The most popular […]

A Woman’s Singular Ambition

“We are called to be women. The fact that I am a woman does not make me a different kind of Christian. But the fact that I am a Christian does make me a different kind of woman.”Elisabeth Elliot I spent this women’s history month highlighting thirteen women, fellow sisters in Christ, who lived lives […]

The Infinite Gain of Giving

In the longing in the foretaste comes the telling of mind and heart that ourselves are not a waste when self ends and God doest start. -Carolyn Weber Early in marriage and motherhood I had a consistent–albeit hidden–fear that the endless repetition of homemaking would squeeze out who I was. I thought that my writing […]

Quotidian Clarity: A Poem

It is not a room of my ownI am missing.But an offering,that opensmyself as homeFrom cozy wombto warm embrace.grow, nourish, careIt is nottearing outyellow wallpaperBut seeingtendrils of lifein dishes and laundry and lunchFrom filling what is empty,to giving rest and belonging.love, love, loveIt is not escape,shattered glass,nor caged bird freeBut buildinga place of hope and […]

Birthday: A Poem for Those Who Never Had One

It’s my birthday today.33 years ago, my mother choseLife.Not so forOne million, three hundredseventy-one thousand,two hundred eighty-fiveOthers that year. I made itFrom clump of cellsto person.That [fabricated] line of“You’re nothing” to“You matter”.They didn’t. I grieve for Wombs turned tombs.I hope in the oneWho went in to bothTo offer life to Murderers and murdered Alike.