Author Archives: Lydia

I never expected to be here today: A Poem

It’s easy to look at the days full of meltdowns as wasted days or inconveniences, but I think that maybe they bring about the best kind of heartbreak for a mother. They are the ones that give us insight into who are children are, who we are as mothers, and they break our hearts with […]

Love is Love?

Every year I spend the month of February thinking about love. It began as a rebellion based on my loathing of Valentine’s Day, but it has matured into a practice that has helped reframe my thinking, convicted me of my skewed ideas about love, and ultimately given me a renewed affection for God. The word […]

I Just Need…

Our thought life is a tricky thing. It can dictate so much in steering our emotions and actions, yet, I find myself justifying my wrong thinking often; after all, they’re only thoughts. But are they? In 2 Corinthians 10:5 Paul talks about “taking every thought captive to obey Christ”, within context he’s referring to arguments […]

When Christmas Doesn’t Sparkle

Christmas doesn’t always sparkle. Sometimes it comes in darkness that is so heavy with sorrow it feels like a lie with all its twinkling lights and sugared reality. Even as I write this I think of those who feel the ache of loss magnified in this season, or those entrenched in depression, others battling addiction, […]

Motherhood

It happens like a kind of Dying. Head over porcelain, world spinning. Two lines and excitement and terror. It happens like a kind of Living. Tiny heartbeat, little body wriggling. Movement and growing and just knowing. It happens like a kind of Dying. Tightening, sweating and moaning, and fear. How much more? and how long? […]